Some day I’m going to look back on my life and see how fast it went by.
|Look at this sweetheart!|
Wait a minute, I already do that.
Here’s the thing. My kids have early release at Catholic school today. They are going to get out at noon and my plans for them include cleaning the house and getting laundry done.
Sometimes I really hate that I am not a fun mom. I am not the mom taking my kids to the park or to the museum the afternoon after they get out of school early. Because we’ve been running around with school, activities, sports, workouts — the house has been woefully neglected. And Sarah’s having a friend come home after practice today to prepare to attend her high school’s homecoming football game.
I totally said to Craig this morning, “Well, we have to get this house cleaned up because it’s her first time coming over. I mean, once she’s been over a few times, I might feel a little more comfortable with her seeing how we really live.”
I literally just want to cry right now. Today is my day off work and I already worked out and showered this morning, got the kids off to school, went grocery shopping and put it away and got my laundry almost all done. I won’t even tick off the to-do list that remains because that really will start the waterfalls.
|Dani and me — Taylor Swift Concert!!|
There’s a lot of stress around here. I know in my head and my heart that stress can be good stress and still take its toll on my mind and body. We have a combination of good and bad stress going on right now, and I’m trying to do my best to handle it, but any of you who have been reading my blog for any length of time know that while I do my best…sometimes it’s just not good enough.
I’ve been making a serious effort to try and live in the present lately. Worrying was eating me inside-out — whether it was the future or the past. So, every day I take stock of what’s on our plates and tackle it in the best order possible and at the end of the day move over any unfinished business to the next day. it’s been awhile and I still haven’t ever been able to start with a clean list with no carryovers.
|Vincent having fun|
I guess that is what life is like in this stage. Five kids, ages 14 down to 4, two full-time jobs, school and activities for everyone…it’s starting to get crazy. Good crazy, but crazy, nonetheless. I’m gonna try not to beat myself up too badly for not having a fun activity planned for this afternoon. I think I’ll just be present at lunch with the four kiddos who are home for it today, listen to their school stories and laugh with them. Then, we’ll have to knuckle down and get to the business of the afternoon. And they’ll whine a little bit, but they’ll do it and we’ll make it through.
Tonight when I get into bed, I will have driven Dani to swim practice, dropped Sarah and her friend off at the football game, picked Dani up from swim practice and eagerly awaited Sarah’s arrival home. I’ll have to follow-up with Sarah about the shoes she is wearing to the dance tomorrow, finalize the schedule as to when we are planning to be where for pictures and dance drop off, figure out how Dominic is getting to a birthday party and how Craig and I can attend (however briefly) a social function at church/school.
And…I guess it will all be all right.