Have you ever had one of those days/weeks/months where you wish you could just be left alone?
I’m a fairly outgoing person. I like to talk to people. I like people to talk to me. But lately, I haven’t wanted to talk to many people and I’ve wanted to avoid having people talk to me.
This includes my children to some extent. I am short with them. I rush them when they are trying to tell me something. I avoid beginning discussions when it’s about 15 minutes to bedtime to avoid having them stay up late and talk to me.
An exception is Sarah. I have been trying to talk to her more lately…I want to know what’s going on at school…are the girls treating each other well? Who did she eat lunch with? What did she do at recess? Does she like the book she is reading?
But for the most part, lately, I’d be perfectly content to sit on the couch and hold my almost-4-month-old baby all night long because, well, he doesn’t talk yet.
Is this normal? (Of course it is…)
Don’t get me wrong. I still want to see my children and take part in their active lives. I still want to see my husband and hang out and do something. But I want to spend more time alone than WITH anyone.
It’s not ALL the time.
But it’s the last couple of weeks.
And maybe it will be the next couple of weeks and be gone. Or maybe it will be longer than that and I will not notice it until it passes in 6 months and I have managed to alienate someone.
Do you go through times where you prefer to be by yourself?
Perhaps I should spend that time in prayer…but even then, I don’t really feel like spending time with God either. (Oy, does that make me a heathen?)
I am feeling like I’m in a funk. I’m back at work so my weeks feel like 5 days of going to work and then going to sleep all rushed together followed by 2 days of endless running around to church, school events, volleyball games…
I feel very selfish for what I am about to say:
I feel like I don’t get a chance to do anything I want to do.
Wow, I feel like the worst mother ever for saying that.