Last week, I missed the meeting and the weigh-in due to attending a funeral during that time. I also happened to eat some Chipotle that day. Oops.
The good news is that at weigh-in today, I was the same weight I was two weeks ago. anyone who has done Weight Watchers knows that a week off the weigh-in can be death to the plan. And honestly, for me, it kind of was still. I didn’t do so hot with the eating plan and only recently got back on track. Back on track enough to have not gained anything when I weighed in today.
This week they were talking about Self-Compassion. they talked about that a few months ago, too. I am terrible about this. I’ve done a lot of self-reflection recently (not just about Self-Compassion and my lack of it) and of course, i can see my lack of self-compassion (i.e., giving myself a break every now and then) take root at a very young age.
We had an assignment to come up with two ways we would be kind to ourselves this week. I have such a hard time figuring this out because I’m gonna be honest, my first thing I think of is a splurge in the food department. Now, that’s gonna go directly against what I’m trying to do. Because a splurge in the food department means a night out at a restaurant, or partaking in one (ahem, too many) of Dani’s decadent desserts (Dani has become quite the baker/chef). So, that’s really not the best way to be kind to myself.
I usually don’t budget money to buy myself anything. I need new clothes for a LONG time before I finally just buy myself something new. For example, I am in SORE NEED of some new workout pants, but I just can’t bring myself to do it. Because — well, a kid in this house almost ALWAYS needs new shoes or something. speaking of shoes, it’s time for new running shoes…sigh.
Maybe I am thinking about this the wrong way. Maybe the goal isn’t a TREAT — like food or new clothes. Maybe I should be looking deeper and yet, more simply. Obviously, I shouldn’t do the negative self-talk that I inevitably do when I don’t weigh what I would like or don’t fit into my favorite clothes. so I suppose I could really try to be mindful of the negative self-talk and nip it in the bud when it starts. I don’t know. I know that having a little compassion for myself is important. After all, when I don’t do as well with the eating-thing or the tracking-what-I-eat-thing or the weight-loss-in-general thing — I’m way harder on myself than I would be with my friends.